What I’ve been up to
I needed to vent/write so I took out my laptop and here I am, typing away. I’m doing this blog post for several reasons. First and most important is the biggest goal that I need to complete, the LSAT. I’ve spent hundreds of dollars to take the test but have not made the time to study for several reasons (and PROCRASTINATION). I had to pay an additional 300 dollar fee to reschedule the test. January 2025 is my official test date. This is my top priority.
I have 106 days to study my butt off. I need to do well to get accepted to law school. I will be a lawyer. It will happen. This is just part of the journey. I will be hiring a tutor, and when December arrives, I hope to be confident enough in my ability to take it and do well, if I need a bit more studying time, I will go from there. I will start blogging about what I learn and what I read to take on this behemoth of a test. I have purchased the Powerscore books and will probably do 7sage with it. These are reading materials that help with the test.
I have to take this seriously, I left IT for this reason. To do better and do something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. Just to give you an idea how long I’ve been wanting to do this, I had to do an assignment in my college days about my future. This was my plan in 2010 – 2011. I’ve been thinking about being a lawyer even before that but here it is in writing. Some people were shocked when I mentioned this since I’ve never told many about this.
Sick and Death in the family
I’m also blogging because I am sick. I don’t know why I’m ill but I am here on my bed typing this in the comfort of my bedroom. I’ve been in bed all day and have called my workplace that I will not be in tomorrow. It sucks because I have been added to a new work project and I cannot participate from being sick. I better make use of this time and put my thoughts into words at least.
This past weekend, I attended a funeral and it was grim. My brother-in-law’s father had passed away and I felt the need to go and provide support. I went with my father and sister. I think this is the first funeral I have ever attended that I stayed for the whole ceremony and it was sad. Really sad. I’ve never felt such a sad presence of someone’s death. I barely knew the man but the small times I spoke to him, he was super humble and seemed very knowledgable and wholesome. Feeling the sadness of his death was definitely felt.
The whole event was so sad that my dad began to tell me about his time with his deceased father when he was alive. My dad was looking broken. It is also hard for me to say grandma/grampa since I’ve never met them and never used those terms. I don’t have a strong emotional association with my family since I never got to meet them. It’s hard to relate to deaths like this but I could sense my dad’s sorrow and started to think if he should be at the ceremony since he began to suffer. He was sad the days before the funeral. He went because he knew what my brother-in-law was going through and needed to be there in that dark time but he also become very emotional from it.
The heart hitting speeches during mass and the emotional bagpipe songs being played during the burial was very emotional. Music really touches the soul. The sound coming out of that was truly touching. After the bagpipe stopped playing, there was silence and then there was a breeze of wind and the trees rustling from it. You just heard the trees whispering to each other and the human silent was felt. It felt spiritual as if the deceased was there saying it was ok. I could not fathom what the family was going through but I felt a great sadness throughout the whole funeral. I’m glad I went to give support in their time of need. At one point, I drove my dad back to my sister’s house to lessen his sorrow and then drove back to the cemetery to continue the support. I drove back home alone and just had deep thoughts about life. I’ll be in that same situation one day.
Moving back to my parent’s house
I purchased my first home (with my sister as a business partner) last year and moved out of my parent’s house for the first time. I lived alone in the house and it was a ton of work but I enjoyed it. I cleaned every weekend, constantly did laundry, explored my new location, met the neighbours, always found something to do, was always fixing something that broke down, and most importantly, I was making sure the house did not burn down. Leaving the house unattended for the first few weeks was always a scary thought. For the biggest purchase of my life (to date), it’s a scary thought.
Many interesting things happened in the house. I was living the homeowner life and relating to all the homeowners at work. The typical conversation was about how expensive homeownership was. The windows were updated, the furnace and AC were replaced, the house was repainted, the kitchen was renovated, the floors were done, the doors were replaced, and so much more was done. Is this what adulting is? I don’t know how I feel about it. Save for a house, buy the house, pay off mortgage/bills by slaving away at a job, be old by the time it’s paid off, still pay for repairs, was it worth it? I don’t know but at least I ‘own’ something and it is the first of many.
I have now moved back home. The house I lived in for 1 year is now rented out. This whole process has been extremely stressful yet rewarding. From finding tenants who are not scammers, making sure nothing is broken, doing the paperwork (insurance, legalities, etc), and continued maintenance of the house while working, training, and also trying to study for law school is a lot. I have to keep going. I managed to do this with the help of my business partner and my motivation to keep hustling, to leave a legacy. We are doing it all on our own. There’s no third party and it’s a way to have upward mobility. Time will tell.
I am proud of how far I have gotten. The goal is to keep going and growing in every way. I have other business ventures in the making but from everything that has happened, it all takes a lot of time and I have to be patient before I can release the product/service. Here are some other business ventures I have worked on and will always be working on.
- My Lifestyle Brand (I am hoping this year, I show my first piece)
- Latin Restaurant/Food Truck (Working on it with my mother)
- Continuation of my website/YouTube channel (always working on it)
- Reselling of “hypebeast” products (reselling items people want)
- Gaming internet cafe (always wanted to do this but it’s too risky in north America)
- Trucking side hustle (I’ve reached out for a truck license, it is 6k and I need two weeks off to complete the mandatory in class portion)
- Create and host an unsanctioned race (bike race/ run race)
My New Job
Last but not least is my new job in public safety. I left my job in IT this year and I started a new job. It feels weird not being in IT anymore. It’s also nice getting overtime and being asked if I’m interested in doing extra projects instead of me always having to ask. I’m getting things I never got, it feels nice. It also feels very weird being in a new industry. I can’t explain it. It’s just weird. It is a breath of fresh air and I’m not hating it. I spoke to an individual who left the industry and he felt the same. He said it was normal. It’s always that sense of ease when others have gone through the same.
I know absolutely nothing in this industry and I am just being thrown into the fire. I love it. Get uncomfortable to be comfortable. I also know I will not be doing the current role forever. I’m only doing it for the slightly higher pay and exposure to the field of law. My current job is helping me get exposure, allowing me to meet lawyers, crowns, judges, and seeing what they do. I get to go to court and learn about the law while helping the community at the same time. I plan on leaving the job as soon as I get accepted to law school. I am done blogging for now. I will try and sleep and be less sick. I hope.
